I cheated and hate that i did

confession time, first time i have cheated since January…DAMMIT, last night i had one cup of dressing and one cup of mashed potatoes with gravy…OMG it was great, but, it was SO NOT WORTH IT, i kicked myself and now i am over it and back on the wagon…WHY DID I DO THAT????? I had a horrid attitude last night, just basically said, what the hell i can’t drop a pound while doing what i am doing i might as well eat fat food…..okay over that crap now….hoping the rain quits so i can go try to bike a bit today…or listen to damn miya on the wii fitness coach, she is really starting to annoy me, lol…Hugs skinnymes…sorry i blew it, but now i am the one who will pay for it….

Happy Monday

6 inches of beautiful fresh snow on the ground, means no biking this week again….and not quite enough to open the trails either, so it’s the normal indoors work out to the wii fitness coach…UGH. I am truly only hoping to break this damn over THREE WEEK PLATEAU before the meetup….is that TOO MUCH TO ASK? lol….and i am counting on you girls to make me stick somewhat to the diet while i am there too, call me a fat ass or whatever it takes, i don’t want this one week to put back on every stinkin pound i lost, that is what happened the last time i was there and it sucked BAD…..I am leaving here in less than two weeks, can you believe it? spending a few days in KS before we head the rest of the way…wahooooooo fun

wahoooo weight in day NOT

STILL on my plateau, been three weeks now…not sure what to do to make a change…..suggestions? ideas? lipo suction??

just not feelin it

been not a good week, lost a snowmobile buddy last night, he was doing what he loved tho…..RIP ED….I am tired again, tired of busting my ass and not getting results, but, i will keep it up, eventually something has GOT to give here, been three weeks no change, no gain, no loss, no inch difference….NO CLUE….clueless here…I need a personal trainer, lol…

Sorry gross but, part of the routine?

Ya ok, so i am doing a full body cleanse, just started today, have my two liter bottle of water and no matter what it takes it will be empty before bed (ugh). Have one our workout behind me and 200 crunches already this AM. Things are sailing along OK i spose….i watched biggest loser last night and man that depresses me….11 pounds in ONE WEEK, i’ve been fighting this last ten pounds for THREE F’N WEEKS and it’s not budging…THAT pisses me off dammit. I know i know big people lose faster, but even still……the one guy lost more than i weigh in his three months…..UGH……grrrrrr………Today will be a good day tho…i am going to MAKE it a good day…have to, no one else will for me

Anybody wear size 8 jeans?

okay a friend just brought like three or four pair of cords and jeans over here (all brand new with tags) size 8, one pair jeans, one pair of maroon colored jeans (both straight legs med to low rise) one pair of pretty green cords, and i think a pair of grey cords…these are all new with tags…..don’t fit me, so let me know if anyone wants them….

400 crunches a day……

and i am tired of it, 400 regular crunches a day plus 100 side crunches and a half hour on the ab lounge….2 TWO hours a day exercising (not counting the crunches) and nothing at all to show for it…am i tired of this shit? oh hell yes I AM SO FREAKING TIRED OF IT…..i am whining, because i am sick of the food i am eating, the routines i am doing with not a freakin thing to show for it other than a glob of fat on my lower stomach and back fat too……i want to start the chainsaw and just carve the shit off because i truly believe that is the only way i’ll EVER rid myself of this shit, it’s disgusting, and gross and nasty….sorry for the downer posts the last couple days but i am not doing well at all, am sick of pretty much everything lately….Stupid people, people with excuses, people who are not responsible, people who think the whole world revolves around them, people who have NO regard for other peoples struggles…ohhhh not a good start to the week is it? Damn sorry girls

i so want to just say screw it

seriously, i am about to break down and eat everything in this freakin house, can’t drop the weight no matter how hard i try i might as well just eat and be fat…..i want mashed potatoes, any potatoes, i want gravy, i want sweets, i want real cream in my coffee, i want something that is NOT fat free, i want to stop the two hour workouts and i just want to be NORMAL…..

POST-HUMP day :-)

well nothing new here, not really anyway, keep on truckin is all i can say…eating good and exercising best i can….well not BEST i can but AM working on it….life is good, life is great…..GO GIRLS GO. Plateau is still here,but i am proudly standing on it…hoping for something great

Well hell i missed a day didn’t i?

I totally biffed blogging yesterday, oh well nothing new to report anyway It’s back to my work week as innkeeper here. The guys (all four guests) are so damn appreciative of my cooking etc. I LOVE to cook and that was a problem in my fat life, now it’s awesome as i am cooking and none of it goes to waste…..great stuff, happy guys, happy guys work harder and bring more income to my little checkbook…Alls well.

I do have some digestive problems going on here, and that is getting me down. Been taking fiber supplements, eating my yogurts etc. and still not working as it should…need to do some serious checking in on this, but wont bore you all with details. I am now at a new plateau which is OK i suppose…Not happy about it but i could be gaining, so…..i’ll just hang out here for another couple of days and hope to see some better results soon. I am still plugging along, will be heading out to the woods today to cut some tree’s, hopefully i can get about 12 full cord down, that should work me out a bit, have to keep up with the boys so wish me luck