I cheated and hate that i did

confession time, first time i have cheated since January…DAMMIT, last night i had one cup of dressing and one cup of mashed potatoes with gravy…OMG it was great, but, it was SO NOT WORTH IT, i kicked myself and now i am over it and back on the wagon…WHY DID I DO THAT????? I had a horrid attitude last night, just basically said, what the hell i can’t drop a pound while doing what i am doing i might as well eat fat food…..okay over that crap now….hoping the rain quits so i can go try to bike a bit today…or listen to damn miya on the wii fitness coach, she is really starting to annoy me, lol…Hugs skinnymes…sorry i blew it, but now i am the one who will pay for it….

Happy Monday

6 inches of beautiful fresh snow on the ground, means no biking this week again….and not quite enough to open the trails either, so it’s the normal indoors work out to the wii fitness coach…UGH. I am truly only hoping to break this damn over THREE WEEK PLATEAU before the meetup….is that TOO MUCH TO ASK? lol….and i am counting on you girls to make me stick somewhat to the diet while i am there too, call me a fat ass or whatever it takes, i don’t want this one week to put back on every stinkin pound i lost, that is what happened the last time i was there and it sucked BAD…..I am leaving here in less than two weeks, can you believe it? spending a few days in KS before we head the rest of the way…wahooooooo fun

wahoooo weight in day NOT

STILL on my plateau, been three weeks now…not sure what to do to make a change…..suggestions? ideas? lipo suction??

just not feelin it

been not a good week, lost a snowmobile buddy last night, he was doing what he loved tho…..RIP ED….I am tired again, tired of busting my ass and not getting results, but, i will keep it up, eventually something has GOT to give here, been three weeks no change, no gain, no loss, no inch difference….NO CLUE….clueless here…I need a personal trainer, lol…

Sorry gross but, part of the routine?

Ya ok, so i am doing a full body cleanse, just started today, have my two liter bottle of water and no matter what it takes it will be empty before bed (ugh). Have one our workout behind me and 200 crunches already this AM. Things are sailing along OK i spose….i watched biggest loser last night and man that depresses me….11 pounds in ONE WEEK, i’ve been fighting this last ten pounds for THREE F’N WEEKS and it’s not budging…THAT pisses me off dammit. I know i know big people lose faster, but even still……the one guy lost more than i weigh in his three months…..UGH……grrrrrr………Today will be a good day tho…i am going to MAKE it a good day…have to, no one else will for me

Anybody wear size 8 jeans?

okay a friend just brought like three or four pair of cords and jeans over here (all brand new with tags) size 8, one pair jeans, one pair of maroon colored jeans (both straight legs med to low rise) one pair of pretty green cords, and i think a pair of grey cords…these are all new with tags…..don’t fit me, so let me know if anyone wants them….

400 crunches a day……

and i am tired of it, 400 regular crunches a day plus 100 side crunches and a half hour on the ab lounge….2 TWO hours a day exercising (not counting the crunches) and nothing at all to show for it…am i tired of this shit? oh hell yes I AM SO FREAKING TIRED OF IT…..i am whining, because i am sick of the food i am eating, the routines i am doing with not a freakin thing to show for it other than a glob of fat on my lower stomach and back fat too……i want to start the chainsaw and just carve the shit off because i truly believe that is the only way i’ll EVER rid myself of this shit, it’s disgusting, and gross and nasty….sorry for the downer posts the last couple days but i am not doing well at all, am sick of pretty much everything lately….Stupid people, people with excuses, people who are not responsible, people who think the whole world revolves around them, people who have NO regard for other peoples struggles…ohhhh not a good start to the week is it? Damn sorry girls